Ignorance is bliss? it really is in so many ways, adam and eve had the garden of eden and lived in perfect happiness until they ate from the tree of knowledge so in hindsite their ignorance was bliss - the first story of a really really old book and we still havent learnt our lesson.
Id like to be all like ''ah fuck it just have fun and live your life'' but id like to think my maturity hasnt made me boring just more aware of both my actions and others actions. Growing up has absolutely sucked! Living back with my mum after 6 years of having my own space is a killer, especially since her neighbours are so loud i often feel like im sharing a two bed house with about 20 people. At least starting work on Monday is gonna give me time to get away from everyone...well.. not really... ill be surounded by people. 'L'enfer, c'est les autres' - a very famous quote by Jean-Paul Sartre, and im totally feeling it at the moment.
Truth is, as much as i try to care a little less and ignore my constant need to not be single and to be loved - i dont think i can. Ive learnt to quickly hate those who make me smile because i have already pre-empted that if they can make me happy they can also make me unhappy.
'Its easy to daydream and get carried away with the idea of perfection but it IS only an idea'